You Irritated Me, I Will Irritated You More

When I write this, my feeling was like roller coaster. Do you ever feel like when your home never feel like home? It more like a hell to me. The hottest hell in the highest level. I am actually have nothing to write because all I can feel is I want scream and throw anything around me. But I also know, writing is the only heal to reduce my anger.

Did I tell you before that my relationship with my family is not good? Oops, sorry. Even word 'good' still too good to describe it. The word should be 'bad' instead of good. Since I always in the opposite opponent, of course no one stand in my side.

So here is what happen to me. Since morning the girls act and behave to ignoring me. I really knew it from their gesture. And me... as the most selfish and stubborn person ever, I choose to 'okay, let's play the game!'

I am not a person who will ask them with sad face, "Did I do something wrong?" or try to being nice to them until they also nice to me. NOPE. ONE HUNDRED PERCENT NO. YOU WISH. Because you know why? I didn't do anything wrong and I don't deserve their bad behave.

Girls, let me tell you something. You irritated me, I will irritated you more. And yup, as I wish, they got irritated more than what I get. And the thing continue until... late afternoon. It's time to clean the house and I know the younger one won't clean the house because she just did ironing. But, hell-o?! You only did that thing in weekend! I did that everyday! Lately I know they want to go to supermarket. But I know. Even they don't go to supermarket the younger one still won't clean the house. Because she think, 'I did ironing so now it's your turn to clean the house'. So f@#%, right?

When they are ready to go to supermarket, I ask the older one to buy onion and onion powder. But, do you know her reaction?! Her face show like what I ask is too pricey to buy. REALLY?! IT'S JUST ONION!!!

After they come back, I don't greet them like I always did. I just stay in my room. Minutes later, the older one told me from outside that she forgot to buy onion powder and I was like... *rolling eyes*. I know it will happen. Luckily, I just did my evening prayer so my temper bit turn down.

I still in my room wait them until they finish to put the stuff into cabinet and come to their room. When they already in their room it's time for me to come out. And do you know what I found? They bought 2 chicken soup but not tell me like they always did. Hmmm, okay. I will pretend to unsee it. And it make them more irritated.

 minutes later, i heard the younger one whispered. I can't hear the full sentence but I clearly hear the younger one said 'lazy'. I know it was for me. Even I only heard one word but I know the complete meaning. The 'lazy' word mean she don't want do something for me as what the older one offer to her. I am a bit 'DEG' moment but the left is my anger raised. Which is the older one told the younger one to tell me that they bought a chicken soup to me. HAHAHA!

(take a break for a while to eat my breakfast and after that I realize my anger reduced)